RAHHHHHH.

I've been thinking, a lot. Okay, maybe it isn't exactly the time to think so much, because I know I should be spending more time concentrating on my studies, but anyhow, I still have to think. Thinking has been somewhat part of my life. Gee. Fantasizing, thinking wisely, I don't know.

I've been thinking of what to do with my life after O'Levels, cause somewhat I feel like I'm going on with school life aimlessly. I don't even exactly know what Junior College to go to. I want to do so many things, acting, radio, fashion designing, I don't know. But hey, it seems like what I want to do, may not be what I can do next time. I mean, what makes me think that I'm oh-so great in acting, that I will easily get a job in Showbiz? Nothing. As for fashion, like what they say in Project Runway, "In fashion, one day you're in, and they next day, you're out." So then again, what makes me think I'll always be in? Nothing again. You see, nothing is confirmed in life. I mean, imagine life, with everything so planned, so sure of what will happen, it will be a real bore. So back to my point, I want to get to Junior College, where I can carry on holding onto my dreams, at the same time, have something to fall back on when everything fails. But what my mom suggests, I take something that gives me more assurance, but what gives me assurance contains 0% passion. So what now? I'm thinking that if I'm really passionate about it, I still may not get it. I mean, it needs effort and faith too, doesn't it? Sheesh.

Another thing that I've been thinking of is Inner Peace. I heard those words from someone, and it began bothering me if I have Inner Peace. "Inner Peace is a feeling that comes from the heart. It is knowing that no matter what happens in life, you can handle it and maintain a happy and peaceful mind. It comes from knowing that you are never alone, and that there is a power greater than you; A power that you can tap on anytime, and receive the help and guidance you need." I doubt I have Inner Peace yet, but I will, someday.

The last thing I have been thinking of is how, I've been friends with you, when I know nothing that's going on. It's as if, we're friends and yet we know nothing at all about each other. Even myself, I realise how I have been keeping truckloads of things from you, and I can't seem to figure out why. Whenever I think that one day, you might leave for somewhere, and say, "Don't worry, Anne. I will remember you for life." And then as the years go by, not an email, not a letter, not a postcard. And I realise how you have forgotten me. I don't know if I might be expecting it, or actually not wanting that day to come. But I might actually go through those days pretty well, because I might actually be going through it now. Honestly, I think I'm closer to so many people, that I probably just got close to recently, than I am to you.

Anyway, on a lighter note, I watched "The Arena" and it was rather amusing. But seriously, do good looks matter? And just now, we were on the Weight Issue, and I thought, a person's weight doesn't matter. It's just numbers, with a unit at the back. What matters, is how you look with you weight. I mean, when you go to the mall, or simply walk the road, no one actually asks you what's your weight right? They simply judge you with how they see you. So what's with the Weight Issue? So if you're dieting for GradNight, don't bother checking if you have lost weight by taking you weight every month. Look at yourself in the mirror, and ask yourself, if you have lost weight. HAHA.

Alright, Ciao.